Monday, October 20, 2014

I can do hard things

Well you guys, i've literally had the weekend from hell. Homework piled up, Landon didn't want to nap at all Saturday so he literally screamed all day and then I woke up to feed him Sunday morning to find that I have mastitis. Cool huh? I have never been so stressed out in my life, I have never felt so exhausted even though Landon is sleeping through the night now and school has never seemed so hard.    It is one of those things where you sit and wonder why this is happening to you, why can't you just have one day where everything goes as planned. Well, that pretty much goes out the window when you're a parent. But no matter how frustrated I get I realize that I can do this, I can do hard things.

Everyone tells you that it's not going to be easy being a new parent, and as much as you want to prepare for it, you can't. You have no idea what your child will be like. Landon is a great baby in every single way and I love him more than words can describe, but the kid HATES naps. Which means I have a very short window to try and get at least one assignment done or even take a shower before he wakes up, all before I have to leave for work at about 1:30. By the end of the day when I get home from work, dinner is literally the last thing I want to be doing. But I am beyond lucky to have a husband who has taken on the cooking role this semester. It is such a small task, but it helps me out so much. As much as I just want to quit some days and just say forget it, Tyson always reminds me that I can do it. I will get through this. And he is right, because I can do hard things.

Being a mom is the hardest, the most selfless, the most tiring, and the most rewarding job. I have never wanted to scream and pull my hair out and just sit and kiss Landon's sweet face at the same time. He will literally be screaming and when I am about to just sit him down and take a deep breath for a minute, he stops and gives me the biggest smile, and just like that my heart melts and I cannot be mad anymore. It's insane the love you have for your child even during sleepless night or those days when all they want to do is scream. I just always have to sit and remind myself that I can do hard things.

Today I stayed home from work, because I went to bed last night feeling like I got hit by a bus. I got about four hours of sleep and no matter how many blankets I put on me I couldn't get warm. Thanks mastitis. I finally got put on antibiotics so i'm hoping they kick in soon so that I wont feel like this anymore. I am so incredibly grateful for Ty. He has taken such good care of me today, and took care of Landon today except when I had to feed him..and maybe cuddle him while he napped. As much as I don't feel good being a mom is a job that you can't really take off from. But I wouldn't change that for the world because I have the most beautiful little boy who lights up my world every single day. He is the reason that I push myself through school, he is the reason I am who I am today. I look at him and remind myself, I can do hard things.

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Hello fall and happy two months!

Guys, my baby is two months old on Friday. How is this possible? Don't get me wrong, I love watching him grow everyday and in glad he's out of the boring stage, because let's be honest, they are boring the first little bit because literally all they do is sleep. But now besides sleeping, we've got smiles ALL the time and he is starting to find his voice and is "talking" now! I do however hate that he doesn't like to be held for too long, he likes to be on the ground and wiggle. He only will cuddle with me when I'm putting him to sleep. Dumb. But I do love that he isn't a baby that needs to be held 24-7. 

Well besides baby, Ty and I just started another semester! This is my last semester....hallelujah! Words cannot describe my excitement. But let me tell you, going to school, working and being a mom is the most exhausting thing ever. Getting homework done while trying to feed/ put a baby to sleep is hard. I've mastered typing with one hand. Even though I may complain about how tired I am, or how little motivation I have to do school work, I know in the end it's all worth it. Getting an education is so important and I am so glad my parents pushed me to get my bachelors even when I wanted to just get my associates. By the end of the semester I may be run down and so ready to throw in the towel but I will have accomplished this part of my life. 

Ty still has one more semester and then we are outta here! I am so proud of Ty, he is a amazing dad and such a hard worker. He is going to be such a great role model for Landon as he gets older. Ty also gets to apply for internships and so we will figure out at some point where we will be for next summer! We are really pushing for Florida , but we will see what happens when the time comes!

Fall is here and I've never been more excited for everything that it brings. I think it's because Landon is here and we get to do things with him...oh and we get to go to Florida:) 

Well, thats really all of the update I have for ya'll! I know, super short blog post, and maybe not super exciting but whatever. Oh, and wish me luck because Thursday I have to take Landon in to get his shots all by myself. This momma is slightly nervous. Hopefully he takes it like a champ and doesn't cry cause I may not be able to contain myself! 

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Landon Howard Clark

July 25, 2014 at 8:06pm our lives changed forever.

First off let me just say that the waiting game that comes around as it gets close to your due date sucks, and it sucks even more waiting after your due date! Luckily we only had to wait two days after  to meet this little guy. During the waiting game i was dilated to 1cm and 50% effaced for probably a month. Needless to say I was frustrated every time I went. The day before the doctor gave me something to help dilate naturally so being induced wouldn't be so bad the next day. Luckily it helped a little.

5:30 am came way to fast Friday morning. Ty and I got about 2 hours of sleep by the time 5:00 rolled around. I called the hospital to see when they wanted me to come in and they were already waiting for other women to give birth so I was told to call back at 8. Once I did they said come in at 9. So we got up, finished packing and left to get my mom. Man, did the nerves set in when we walked out of the house. We knew we weren't coming back alone..it was scary.

I got checked in and they broke my water at 9:45. Then they waited to start me on pitocin to see if i would start contracting naturally. Of course I didn't so they started me. Ten minutes later I started getting contractions and I needed the epidural. I don't get how women do it naturally...after three contractions and bawling through them, I probably would have died by the time I needed to push.

The epidural was heaven. I almost passed out while they were giving me the IV so I thought the epidural was gonna be bad. Nope, didn't feel a thing. So all you ladies about to have babies...get the drugs. Trust me. We waited and waited and finally the nurse said I was about ready to push. We had to wait till 6 because of shift change. Once we started to push it was a long journey. If you want details I'll be happy to share the full story in person! But to give you the shorter version it was a really rough delivery. My doctor said he hasn't had a delivery this rough in 6 years, so that basically tells ya it wasn't easy. I was super close to needing a c-section but the doctor was determined to get him here normally and he did! At 8:06 we had a perfect 7 pound 11 oz baby boy!

I've never felt this type of love before. And I have never seen Ty light up the way he did when he held his little boy in his arms for the first time. It's amazing how much more my heart was filled when I looked at that baby for the first time. He is perfect in every way and he is such a good baby! We were so blessed with a baby that is awake and alert during most of the day and who sleeps basically the entire night! We honestly couldn't of asked for anything better!

Landon, your parents and your family love you more than you'll ever know and we are so excited to be on this life journey with you!

Sorry in advance if we overload your Facebook with pictures...actually we're not that sorry:)

Love,
Jess, Ty and Landon


Thursday, May 15, 2014

Just Ten

Ten....just ten. That's how many weeks I have left until we get to hold this sweet little boy! Ten more weeks until our quiet apartment becomes not so quiet anymore. Ten more weeks until our lives will officially change forever. It's actually quite scary.

Not gonna lie, I'm more than excited about this baby boy, but the thought of him being here in just ten short weeks freaks me out to no end. Ty and I were laying in bed in the other night talking and even though we see and feel him move everyday, and there is piles of baby stuff in the spare bedroom  it still doesn't feel real that we are going to have a baby. But ready or not he is coming.

This third trimester is terrible and I am more than ready to be done with being pregnant. I can no longer lay on my back, it's either the right side or the left. Which ever side Landon prefers me to sleep on. If I'm not on the side he wants he will kick on the side that I'm laying on till I move. I am now permanently uncomfortable. No matter how I sit, stand or lay I'm dying. I can't eat very much at meal times because I'm running out of room. Landon has decided that pressing an arm or a leg against my ribs is a fun activity and I ALWAYS have to pee. Funny story actually, we were coming home one day and as we were walking up the stairs I sneezed....and peed myself a little. It was so funny that I couldn't even be mad or embarrassed.

Don't get me wrong, I know it just sounded like this is some terrible experience, it's really not. For all of you that have been pregnant understand that you get to a certain point and your just done. I love feeling him kick everyday and watching my stomach look like a water bed. It's amazing that a woman's body as the ability to create such a thing and I am more than grateful that Heavenly Father blessed us with this chance to become parents.

And honestly, I can't complain too much because this has been a SUPER easy pregnancy, and I couldn't be happier with everything that has happened. I'm still in my normal clothes, no maternity yet. No stretch marks...just my belly button looks super weird. And I've had very minimal swelling. One thing that I love about all the crazy hormones that go on when your pregnant is that my hair has gotten longer, and has been growing faster! Ty doesn't have much to complain about....at least that's what he tells me. Except that I've become more stubborn. But overall, this pregnancy has been pretty nice to the both of us!

Now it's time for us to get things in gear and start clearing out the spare bedroom to make room for this little boy. I'm pretty excited about walking past that room to see just baby stuff, and just to start setting stuff up/decorating in general.

It's crazy how fast time has flown, and we're now at the home stretch. Weird to think we found out we were pregnant back in November and now we're here. But even though we're super excited to meet him, he is still not allowed to come before his due date. Sorry Landon, your mom and dad want to finish finals first!

Ten weeks little man, just ten more weeks, and you are going to completely change our world:)



Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Spring Break shenanigans

Just as fast as winter semester came, it left. While everyone was rushing around trying to finish up final tests and projects I tried to hold it together because my mom was coming out here for a visit! That week before she came was the longest week ever, but Monday eventually came and she finally arrived!

It was SO good to not have work or anything to worry about. We did so much shopping for baby Landon ( and maybe a thing or two...or three for ourselves). Ty didn't enjoy the shopping as much but he did get into picking out fabric for the quilt my mom is going to make for the crib, which was pretty funny! My mom bought us a stroller and a car seat for our shower gift and the day we picked it out in target was hilarious. My mom had us take down the strollers that were on display to test them out and see which one we liked. Once we found one she had us open it and close it so we weren't stuck in a parking lot one day with a screaming baby and a dis functional stroller. We'll turns out we're the dis functional ones. The stroller said easy close. You pull a strap and bam! It's closed. Weeelllll.......when it came time to open it back up, we didn't quite get it. We tugged and pulled and tried everything for literally 15 minutes and as we were about to go grab a target worker we found it. The open function on the stroller was a big red handle.......how we missed that I don't know. But the best part was trying to get the big box in the car. My mom had an Altima for her rental car and there was no way the box was fitting in. Well, it also happened to be a hurricane in Idaho that day so battling the winds we had to take the stroller out of the box and break the box down all while keeping things from blowing away. Yeah...we got some looks in the parking lot.

We also did a little crafting because I really wanted to make a banner for the baby's room to go above his crib. Thank goodness for porters,because we were able to make a super cute banner that will go perfectly with the patterns on the quilt my mom is making.


We scheduled a doctors appointment for when my mom was here so she could see Landon and just be there to experience some part of this pregnancy with me! Well this appointment was the glucose test and man was it gross! I don't eat a lot of sugar and so having to drink a bottle of it made me want to vomit. I wanted the test done ASAP so I could eat something before the sugar drink came back up. I literally felt like I was on a sugar high...I was shaking and getting a headache. Luckily I passed and didn't have to sit through that again. But after that looking at anything with sugar made me queezy.

Then to end the week we had my baby shower! I am so glad my mom was here for that. It was so nice to have everyone there to come and show their love for this baby boy! He definitely got spoiled and got some dang cute outfits. One of my favorite things Landon got was his blessing outfit made by a really close family friend(basically family). It about melted my heart when I took it out of the bag. She didn't even have to make it, and she went out of her way to make a beautiful outfit that I can't wait to put him in come august! But I truly am grateful for everyone that sent gifts and that came to the shower Ty and I (and Landon) appreciate all the gifts, love and support.


After such a fun week, my mom had to go home and Ty and I got ready to start another semester. This first week has been pretty good so far. I'm just glad I only have one more then I'm home free in December! I am so glad that Ty decided to go on fast track so we could be done with schooling faster. He works so hard and I appreciate all the work he does!

For a little update on the little one: Landon is one pound now! He moves more and more everyday. The past couple of days I felt like he was trying to come out of my belly button....like literally he would push a limb so hard against my stomach i thought he was coming out. But other than that I love being able to push on my stomach and feel exactly where he is. I can't believe he will be here in just a couple of months. I can't wait to meet him! (But Landon, you're not allowed to come during finals week....or else your grounded). Tyson gets so excited sigh all the baby stuff in the house it makes me so happy. I can't wait for him to hold this baby for the first time!

Anyways, that's our update for now. Hopefully more exciting stuff happens so we can keep this blog thing going strong!

Love: Ty, jess and Landon




Sunday, March 23, 2014

Oh, hello spring!

Well, it's officially spring and all the snow is melted and the temperature is slowly starting to get warmer. Although, it may be 53 outside, but once the good ole idaho spring wind gets going it doesn't feel that nice! But we're still happy with anything warmer than 30 and no snow! The semester has come and gone way to fast. Ty has about 2 1/2 weeks left of classes and I have about that long as well until I stop working full time and go back to part time. It blows my mind every semester how fast they come and go. But I'm especially excited for this semester to be over just because my mom gets to come out for a week and it's one more semester down.

Tyson is all done with sports for the semester, he played volleyball basically just for fun. But soccer was/ is always more competitive for him and his team. I love watching him play soccer, because I can tell every time he is in the field he is having fun. Plus I love to be the loud wife on the sidelines pretending I know what I'm talking about! :) I am however excited that indoor soccer is over because I prefer watching them play outside. Mostly because I like knowing my chances of getting pelted with a ball is dramatically slim.

Next semester will be nice for both Ty and I because I only have classes Monday, Wednesday on campus (I'm taking two online classes) and Ty has classes Monday Wednesday Friday, but his Friday class isn't until 2. We both will get off work at noon so we get to spend lots of time enjoying our last bit of just us before Landon makes his appearance in July!

Speaking of Landon, here is a little update on him: I figured out he loves the sound of Tyson's voice. At night when we are laying in bed reading scriptures every time without fail whenever Ty is reading Landon makes the biggest movements. The other night we were watching frozen and, of course singing along, Landon clearly was dancing and enjoying our voices. I looked at my stomach and was amazed with how much he was moving so I told Ty to pause the movie and come look. Once we got quiet he stopped moving, so I told Ty to start talking to him, and sure enough he went crazy after hearing his daddy's voice! No new cravings, and the peaches and Pepsi thing has actually started to wear off!

Since we found out we were pregnant, in the back of my mind I was always a little worried how Thor would take to the new addition. I worried if he would get along with the baby, or just how he would act toward him in general. Mostly because Thor has made his little place in our family and I couldn't stand the thought of him snapping at the baby. Keep in mind when we were training him as a puppy, we pulled on his ears and tail (just as a child would) and put our hands in his food while he was eating and took things from him, so that stuff doesn't bother him. But lately the way he comes and lays by my belly and rests his head on me and just how much sweeter he has become I know he kind of senses  what's going on, and it definitely has comforted me a lot. I now have no doubt he and Landon will at some point become partners in crime.

Even though this kid isn't super big yet (and clearly neither am I) he makes me so very uncomfortable at times. There have been nights were I have been so very frustrated and almost in tears because no matter what I did or how I laid or sat nothing helped. All I really wanted was to lay on my stomach and have Ty rub my back, but obviously that's not an option. I always feel bad when that happens cause I hate complaining to Ty about it. But he has been amazing and does everything he can to help me out. I'm so glad he is so thoughtful and wants to take care of me because I've become more stubborn being pregnant and even when I say no to certain things he makes me do it and usually I'm completely better afterwards! Besides feeling uncomfortable, my feet have started to swell, and it sucks. We went walking the other day and man oh man did my feet feel like super big sausages. But hey, once again another perk of pregnancy.

Well that pretty much sums up what's been going on in our lives recently. Ty turns the big 25 next Sunday so were getting pretty excited about another birthday celebration! We hope we hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday and enjoys their week!

Love- Jess, Ty and Landon


Sunday, February 23, 2014

Oh baby!

Well it has been forever since I've blogged once again, but life happens, and I can't promise I'll keep up anymore because we know how that goes. Before I get to the super good stuff, here is a little update on what's been going on in the Clark's lives! Ty is in school right now, working, and playing on a volleyball and soccer team! Meanwhile I am off track working full time and being a cheerleader on the sidelines at his games! I have two more semesters left and ty has three! Before we know it we will be out of here!

Onto better news, as all of you know we are expecting a baby boy in July! Landon Howard Clark will be the nuggets name and we couldn't be more excited! I'll be 19 weeks on Wednesday and as most of you have seen I'm not showing too much, but he lets me know he is in there every day! My only cravings have been fresh peaches and pepsi ( not together of course...gross.) so weird cause I NEVER drink Pepsi...ever. But every time is drink it Landon goes nuts. I can feel him move all the time now, it's actually what I looked forward to everyday ...I just find it so relaxing to feel him move. Ty was able to feel him for the first time last Sunday and the look on his face was priceless! Whenever I'm laying down at night and Landon is pretty active we watch my stomach move...it's literally the weirdest thing ever. But it's so fun at the same time!

Ty loves to come and talk to and kiss my belly....he does it multiple times a night actually. It's pretty sweet, you can already tell the love he has for this little guy and he is honestly going to be one awesome dad! I can't wait till I get to see him hold this baby in his arms for the first time...although he may not ever hand him back over! That is...until he gets a poopy diaper! Haha

My mom is coming out during our week break and I honestly can't wait! I miss my family so much and it's hard not having them close for my pregnancy. But I'm so grateful to have Tyson's family close, they are so awesome and we are grateful for everything they do for us!

Anyways, that's really all of the exciting news we have. We are enjoying life and the fact that the snow is melting and it is slowly getting warmer! We are excited for this next step in our lives and we can't wait to see what the future holds for us not only with baby, but with graduating and moving into the big people world!

Love - Ty, jess, and Landon